Ashtyn Rose........

Time goes by so fast. I just cannot believe how fast. When I was younger, I could not wait to grow up. My parents would always tell me that when I was older I would cherish my young years and wish time would move slower, as opposed to faster. Boy, were they right!

July 18, 2005, Ashtyn Rose was born into this world and we had NO idea what was ahead of us!! Ashtyn was one of those babies that we had to drive around town for hours to get to sleep. Daddy was off for 5 weeks for paternity leave and she attached to him so fast. Seeing him with her melted me, and still does. They formed a close bond very quickly.

Ashtyn and I, well, that took some time. I know, I know, worst parent of the year award! It was just difficult for me to ease up because I was terrified that I wouldn't be as good of a mom to Ashtyn as I was to Kai since Kai is a boy and I get along WAY better with boys. Women, well, throughout my life previously, I was always hurt by women, therefore, I would push them away and never trust them.

Today, My dear, beautiful, sweet, funny, and unforgettable baby girl, Ashtyn is my little shadow. She and I share a bond so close and so fun, I never imagined I could be here, in this kind of fun-loving relationship with her, a little woman... MY little woman.

I wrote all of that to set up this letter that I wrote for Ashtyn. Here it is;

My Dearest Little Turd Burger,

You are the most beautiful thing I have ever laid eyes on. You have changed my life forever and taught me some precious lessons in life. I love our playful relationship and I just love giving you kisses and squeezing and pinching that adorable little ghetto booty of yours!! You have brought so much joy and laughter to our home and have brought Daddy and I closer. I've never met a child as fun and animated as you are!

You are quite the little flirt. We even brought you with us to the famous pawn shop from the show "Pawn Stars" and those guys all got a kick out of you! You can bring a smile to any grumpy old mans face! They loved you and asked for us to bring you back to entertain them! That is just the kind of fun personality you have!

You are the jewel of Kai's life and he protects you and loves you and dotes on you. You both argue and fight with each other, but at the end of the day, you wouldn't have it any other way and you are precious together. You have your best friend in Kai and I am blessed to have you both as my precious children.

Daddy is infatuated with you. You know that if Mommy won't do it, Daddy will. Mommy spoils you too, but it's Daddy that melts every time you look at him.

Ashtyn, you are destined for amazing and wonderful things. Always remember that you are a child of God and that he loves you as Daddy and I love you. I love you so much stinky butt and will always be here and be your cheerleader throughout life. I love you my gorgeous girl!!

Love, Mommy XoXo